Split

Sometimes I don't know how to feel.  I feel for their bio mom.  She's trying.  She is doing what CPS has told her to do. She's doing her best because she loves her kids.  She's probably not supported by great friends and family like I am.  She may not have much of an education.  For whatever reason she struggles.  

But how can I not half hope she gets her kids back?  She loves them and will do her best to care for them as best as she can.  So many kids are dealing with far worse issues.  

But I want them.  We have loved them from day one. We can give them so much more.  We have the family support, education, and financial means to more than meet all of their needs.  And we can't picture our life without them.  

So what do I do?  Nothing.  There is nothing I can do.  I just wait for whatever our future holds and keep loving them like they deserve.  

It's all in Gods hands which is great because I clearly don't know what's best.