Split

Sometimes I don't know how to feel.  I feel for their bio mom.  She's trying.  She is doing what CPS has told her to do. She's doing her best because she loves her kids.  She's probably not supported by great friends and family like I am.  She may not have much of an education.  For whatever reason she struggles.  

But how can I not half hope she gets her kids back?  She loves them and will do her best to care for them as best as she can.  So many kids are dealing with far worse issues.  

But I want them.  We have loved them from day one. We can give them so much more.  We have the family support, education, and financial means to more than meet all of their needs.  And we can't picture our life without them.  

So what do I do?  Nothing.  There is nothing I can do.  I just wait for whatever our future holds and keep loving them like they deserve.  

It's all in Gods hands which is great because I clearly don't know what's best.  

Roller Coaster

Wow. Three and a half months later and life is great.  Everyone is mostly into routines.

 Little man thrives with them.  Night terrors are short and infrequent for him. He had a tiny rough patch and I predict as different road bumps come along more issues will arise.    Right now he is in love with all things Frozen.  He is also getting good at writing his name, saying his letters, and can count to 11 usually.  He loves to read books and ride his Lightening MacQueen bike.  

Little Missy is a sponge.  She's learning new words every day.  My favorite right now is amen.  She says it after our prayers every night. She likes to talk tell us if she has a dirty diaper but refuses to use the potty.  She likes to make her babies go though.  She's super attached to her bup(cup) and loves being picked up and snuggled.  

We had the best Christmas!   The kids enjoyed the mountain of goodies Santa brought.  Auntie T came over and spent the holiday with us.  Little Man had previously asked Santa for 2 presents.  He more than delivered.  Little Miss even enjoyed opening gifts.  She just stopped and wanted to play with a toy each time she opened it.  

Santa did a good job picking out a gift for me as well.  He bought me a mug that says mom.   How did he know?

We had a court hearing last month.  My MIL came with me.  It was fairly uneventful.  Our next court date isn't until May.  

We still don't have much of a long term update.  Hopefully by this summer we will know more.